Thursday, July 6, 2017

Turning Wait Time into Prayer Time

Dear Theophilous,

The biggest complaint seems to always be about the walk-in clinic… The wait can seem endless! Not only are you not usually feeling your best, and when you add in the crying child (sometimes your own), it can take what feels like forever to be invited into the blessed silence of the examination room. The excitement of hearing your name called is short-lived, however, as you soon realize the second stage of the long wait has only just begun.

Unfortunately, the long wait is not solely the domain of the doctor’s office. In our consumer driven society, where every experience is supposed to be geared to customer convenience, we tend to spend more and more time waiting… at the bank, in the drive-thru, at the supermarket, at the restaurant… even for the bathroom in our own home.

We cannot choose whether or not we find ourselves with this unexpected downtime, but what we can choose is what we do with it. Of course, some waits happening are more predictable than others. We know when we head to the doctor’s office that we will more than likely be in for a lengthy wait. However, when we’re only behind one other car at the drive-thru, we don’t expect to be sitting there for up to 10 minutes (yes, this has happened on occasion). Either way, the question remains – what to do with the (un)expected downtime?

A quick glance around the waiting room at the doctor’s office tells me that most people have come to the realization that they will have to hunker down for an extended period of time. Most adults have either a novel or the newspaper in hand, while their children are mercifully plugged into an electronic device watching cartoons or playing a game (Thanks be to God for earphones). I’ll often do this as well, bringing my current spiritual reading to take advantage of the forced quiet.

Venerable Fulton J. Sheen gives us another option… we should turn our wait time into prayer time:

All the idle moments of one’s life can be sanctified, thanks to the Rosary. As we walk the streets, we pray with the Rosary hidden in our hand in our pocket; as we are driving, the little knobs under most steering wheels can serve as counters for the decades. While waiting to be served at the lunchroom, or waiting for a train, or in a store, or while playing the dummy at bridge, or when a conversation or a lecture lags – all these moments can be sanctified and made to serve inner peace, thanks to a prayer that enables one to pray at all times and under all circumstances.

So before I break out my book, I’ll pull my Rosary beads out of my pocket, make the Sign of the Cross, and slowly, rhythmically begin to pray. Although I may have already prayed the Rosary once that day (it’s a part of my morning routine), I relish this opportunity to meditate quietly once more on the daily mysteries. Without the other distractions of home around me, I actually find that I’m able to better concentrate on my prayers when I don’t feel guilty about tuning out the world around me. Since the Rosary usually takes about 20 minutes to pray properly, I’ll only begin this prayer if I know I’m in for a lengthy wait.

But what about the other times when the waiting has been thrust on us unexpectedly, or we know it will only be a few moments? What if you know you won’t have time to say even a decade of the Rosary, let alone all 5. Depending on the time, location and what you’re waiting for, your quick prayer can take on different forms…

If you know you’re only going to be a few minutes, perhaps you’re behind a few cars at the drive-thru, a decade of the Divine Mercy Chaplet to remind you of God’s saving grace is what’s in order. In line at the grocery store, instead of getting frustrated at all the price-checks or reading the tabloid magazines, a prayer of thanksgiving that you are able to put food on the table is in order.

When the wait comes completely unexpected and my frustration level boiling over, I find it helpful to think of a favourite saint, quickly asking them to pray for me to get through the moment with God’s grace. Once the initial surge in blood pressure subsides, I am then able to approach the unexpected pause in a prayerful manner.

We cannot choose whether or not we find ourselves with these moments of unexpected downtime, but what we can choose is what we do with it. And like in all suffering, big or small, prayer helps make our Cross bearable.

Monday, June 19, 2017

Why We Fear Judgement

Dear Theophilous,

“Who am I to judge?” One might say that this was the question heard around the world. The fact that it was asked at 35,000 feet on a Papal flight, might just justify that moniker. The context of the question and the Pandora’s box it opened aside, by asking the rhetorical question, Pope Francis brought sharply into focus the human fear of being judged.

Very early on in my blogging career I wrote a short article on judging and being judge (you can read it here). I addressed the dilemma of trying to help others avoid condemnation at the final judgement without coming across as taking on God’s unique role of judge of their soul. It is a very fine line, and recently I happened across Edward Sri’s Who am I to Judge?, which gives great insight into how to go about helping others understand God’s judgement without becoming judgemental themselves.

What all of this has highlighted for me lately is our human fear of being judged – especially God’s final judgement at the moment of our death.

Meditating on this question, I’ve come to realize that there are two reasons why we fear judgement:

Ø  We are used to imperfect, human judges; and
Ø  We have already judged ourselves, and found we are lacking.

Imperfect Judges

None of us here on earth has stood before Christ, the perfect judge. That time will come only at the moment of our death, when each of us will face our final judgement. Our last breath taken, our soul will stand before the Lord, the evidence of our earthly life presented for His merciful judgement.

Until that time, however, we will have to content ourselves with less than perfect human judges. This statement isn’t intended to slander judges or our judicial system. I place a lot of faith in both the system and those who run it, for our judges “would have no power over (us), unless it had been given to (them) from above.” (cf Jn 19:11) I trust that in His infinite wisdom, God has placed the right people in the right authority to bring about His plan for Salvation. It may be earthly authority, but its ultimate goal should be to help us to heaven. This is probably why it takes years of law school, practice as a lawyer, and innumerable checks and balances to ensure that only the best of the best become judges,

This said, these are human judges, and, unfortunately, human weakness and sin can get in the way of God’s plans.

Mistakes happen, and even the best and most experienced of judges can make an error in judgement. Even though they are the exception and not the norm, stories of wrongful convictions abound in the media. The masses call foul of the judicial system, and our mistrust of those put into a position of authority deepens.

Unfortunately, this developed mistrust of our imperfect human judges then get projected onto the perfect judge – our merciful Father.

We fear death and our final judgement, because we fear that we will be the exception and not the norm. Although there has been an eternity of God’s perfect and impartial judgement, we fear that we will be the first to be wrongfully condemned. Our human minds, formed in their frailty by a history of imperfect human judges, are unable to understand that God’s judgement is not only perfect and impartial, but that it is also merciful.

We tend to forget that God is slow to anger and abounding is steadfast love. (cf Ps 86:15, Jl 2:13, Jnh 4:2, Ex 34:6, Ne 9:17, Ps 103:8 and Ps 145:8)

This fear of imperfect human judgement leads into the second reason why we fear judgement…


Don’t judge me! is often the pre-emptive retort before someone can make a comment on whatever it is we are doing. What this statement is really saying is: I have already judged myself, and know that I am lacking.

I know that I took an extra trip to the buffet table – don’t judge me!
I know that I drink too much – don’t judge me!
I know that I shouldn’t smoke a pack-a-day – don’t judge me!
I know that I slept around – don’t judge me!

We all know the litany of sinful behaviours and skeletons that hide in our closets. Yes, deep down, we’re ashamed of them. We know what we’ve done is not in our best interest. We really don’t need you to point this out.

When it comes to the list of our own short-comings, we can all be pretty harsh on ourselves, and hearing it from someone else just makes the wound that much deeper. Self-control is usually listed as the last of the fruits of the Holy Spirit for a reason, it can seem to be the hardest to come by. Still, it is something that we desperately need, and should ardently desire.

Our short-comings are never more evident than when we come upon perfection. As an recreational athlete, I never feel more inadequate that when I play with someone who has competed at the highest level… I become aware very quickly of the chasm of skill and athleticism that separates myself from a true athlete. I judge myself unworthy to be on the same playing field as my more-talented adversary, and the lack of confidence soon shows in my increasingly sloppy play – but don’t judge me… the other guy is vastly superior.

Looking ahead to our own final judgement, we can’t help but think that we will feel the same way when we come before Jesus. Christ is the ultimate perfection, and we are not. Although called to hold ourselves to His divine standard, we come to realize very quickly that we will fall considerably short of His heavenly criteria… but don’t judge me – at least I’m trying.

Maybe in this day and age we want to shout out to Christ: “Don’t judge me!” because we have judged ourselves against His divine standard and we understand just how much we are lacking. We don’t want God to judge us, because through His revelation we already know where our actions are taking us, and we don’t want to go there. If we ignore His judgement, then we can ignore the consequences.

We need to remember that if we have judged ourselves, we’re being judged by an imperfect human judge.

In the end, Christ, our ultimate judge, understands this and He is compassionate towards us. This is why He has given us the sacrament of Reconciliation through the Church. He offers us the opportunity to bring ourselves out of our own imperfect self-judgement into His perfect and merciful judgement.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Rediscovering our Catholic School Identity

Dear Theophilous,

The first week of May every year marks Catholic Education Week across Ontario. It’s a week to both celebrate and reflect on publicly funded Catholic Education throughout the province. It’s a time to celebrate where we have come from and where we are at, and it offers the unique opportunity to reflect on where we are going.

Having grown up in Ontario’s publicly funded Catholic system – I was in the first wave of students to be fully-funded through grade 13 (yes, I am that old), and now with over 20-years experience as a teacher in the same system, I’ve spent more time in Catholic Schools than anywhere else. With a changing perspective from student to teacher, I’ve witnessed our Catholic schools morph into quasi-public schools where it’s at least permissible to talk about God, if not encouraged.

I have to make the confession right up front… I came of age in the post-Vatican II era, where the spirit of Vatican II was alive and well in our Catholic school system (vestiges of which still linger in our corridors). That said, my Catholic adult self was formed during the St. John Paul II era, followed by Benedict XVI, along with the push-back that has come with the Francis effect. Needless to say, I’ve seen and participated in both extremes of the pendulum swing – for good and for bad.

Personally, I think it’s time we rediscover the Catholic identity of schools.

If we are not to be seen as simply public schools with a Cross (and not even a Crucifix) on the wall, where the curriculum, environment and ethos are no different from the school across the street; then we need to return to what makes Catholic schools distinct – essentially, what makes Catholic schools Catholic:

·      Sacraments
·      Prayer
·      Almsgiving
·      Church Teaching
·      Teacher Formation


The Catechism of the Catholic Church plainly states: The Eucharist is the source and summit of the Christian life. The other sacraments, and indeed all ecclesiastical ministries and works of the apostolate, are bound up with the Eucharist and are oriented toward it. For in the blessed Eucharist is contained the whole spiritual good of the Church, namely Christ himself. (CCC 1324) As such, the Eucharist (and through it, Christ) needs to be the focus of Catholic education.

How can this be done? How can we make the Eucharist the centre of life in our Catholic schools? First we need to do a reality check – Catholic students, for the most part, do not attend Mass on Sunday. Over the years my own informal polling tells me that less than 25% of the students in front of me attend Mass on a regular basis. If we want the Eucharist to be the centre of life in our Catholic schools, then we need to show and teach our kids that it truly is the source and summit of our lives. With Mass usually happening monthly in our Catholic schools, students need to be taught and shown the sacredness of the liturgy. Mass can no longer be seen as Tiny Talent Time; a sing-a-long of songs that have no meaning to the season; a showcase for student musicians, artwork or social-justice initiatives. These are all great things and rightfully need to be celebrated; but they should never overshadow the greatness of the Eucharist.

As a quick addition to this, in the schools where the Eucharist is present in chapel Tabernacles, it should be honoured and venerated. Far too often the chapel is in a dusty corner of the school, even with the door locked, hiding Christ of the students. As if to add insult to injury, some chapels are being used as meeting or storage rooms. If Catholic education truly is to be Christ-centred, then we need to make sure Christ, in the Eucharist, is at the community’s centre.

From this Eucharistic foundation, love of the other sacraments will flow. The other sacrament that our students will come into contact with in our Catholic schools is the sacrament of Reconciliation. Traditionally offered during the penitential seasons of Advent and Lent, this often forgotten yet beautiful sacrament needs to be properly explained and modeled for our students (i.e.: students should see their teachers partaking of the sacrament, not hear what they are confessing). As a sacrament, a conduit of God’s saving Grace, Reconciliation needs to be given the honour it deserves, and shouldn’t be taking place (as unfortunately happens) in a broom closet or storage room.


As Christians, St. Paul calls on us to “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” (1 Thess 5:16-18). The idea that we should ‘pray without ceasing’ doesn’t necessarily mean that we need to be on our knees 24/7, but rather that prayer needs to be in integral part of our day and interwoven into everything that we do. For this very reason, at the top of the whiteboard at the front of my classroom I have written the Benedictine motto Ora et Labora – Prayer and Work. I have done this to remind my students of the two oars that are meant to propel us through life.

Our prayer life can, and must take on many different forms: personal and communal; formal and informal. There are all kinds of benefits to be had in having a vibrant prayer life that incorporates these different elements. Sadly, however, the vast majority of our students have never been taught how to pray beyond the rote recital of what I like to call The Big Three of the Our Father, Hail Mary and Glory Be.

There is a vast treasure trove of traditional prayers and devotions, that have unfortunately remained a mystery to the average once-a-week Catholic.

Since the Pontificate of St. John Paul II, the Rosary seems to be making a comeback in our Catholic schools. In many parishes there is a Rosary Apostolate that visits the local schools, teaching the Mysteries and walking the students through how to pray this great devotional prayer. I have also been blessed to have a guest introduce my students to the Living Rosary, a multi-sensory prayer that brings the intercession of our Blessed Mother to life.

Other great prayer traditions can also be added to these standards. Depending on the timing of class, I will teach my students the Angelus, a wonderful meditation on the Annunciation and Conception of Christ. Also, my prayer selection will vary depending on the Liturgical season, with great Advent or Lenten prayers that highlight the sacredness of those seasons. Finally, I will also teach my students the Prayer to St. Michael the Archangel to give them courage as they face the trepidations of the 21st Century.

These communal prayers are all great for the classroom, but our students also need to be taught how to deepen their prayer lives once they walk out our door. For this I have begun the practice of a combined Lectio Divina and Eucharistic Adoration in our school chapel. This has taken some formal teaching so that the kids understand how to formulate their own personal prayer in preparation for the Word of God, and even more work to teach them how to sit silently with Christ. If every you want to see a teenager twitch, force them to sit silently without their phone for even the shortest length of time. Starting off slowly, I will have them sit in silence before the Tabernacle for only 2 or 3 minutes, but by the end of the semester they will be up to 7 to 10 minutes. The students always tell me shutting the world off is the hardest thing they have ever done, but also the most personally rewarding – to the point where they ask me weekly if we’re going to the chapel.


Catholic Social Teaching seems to be the hallmark of Catholic education, yet you will have noticed that I list it third.

Is Catholic Social Teaching important and in need of being an integral part of the Catholic school system? Yes – but only if done for the right reasons.

In staff meeting after staff meeting the question is always asked… What makes us different from the public school across the road? If the answer is solely based on how much the school has raised for charity or which social causes it promotes – then really the answer is not much. Our public school counterparts are equally good at raising funds for the cause and ensuring that the marginalized are supported and cared for. This is good humanitarianism.

The difference lies in why we do these things in a Catholic school. Our charity (derived from the Latin Caritas or love) is based on the inherent dignity possessed by each and every human because they are made in the image of God. It is this notion that we don’t do good simply for good’s sake, but that we do good for God’s sake, that needs to be the driving force behind the good works done in our Catholic schools.

Once our students come to understand that answering Christ’s call to help those in need is answering Christ himself, we spark a flame of love in their hearts that will hopefully burn for a lifetime.

Church Teaching

In the 21st Century, this is always the tough one. In many ways being Catholic in today’s society is much like it was in the time of Christ - very counter-cultural. It takes a brave soul to stand out in the crowd and profess a belief in Church teachings, founded on Christ’s words and actions, formed by over 2,000 years of Sacred Tradition.

It is too easy to gloss over or simply ignore the more demanding of Christ’s teaching in the face of everything students and teachers are bombarded with in mainstream media (trust me, I know this, as I’ve been guilty of it myself). Yet, if we truly love our students, we need to present them with the whole of Church teaching in its totality. This said, we do need to recognize the students that are in front of us, addressing issues that are relevant to their lives at this time.

When presenting Church teaching, we need to present it as just that – Church teaching, and not our personal opinion. Also, it is of great importance to ensure that God loves us so much that He has given us the gift of Free-Will, and that Church teaching needs to be used to form our conscience, and that the ultimate judgement of our/their souls lies with God and not their religion teacher.

Teacher Formation

None of what has been mentioned above can happen without proper teacher formation. Unfortunately, it has been my experience that this is the missing link which can cause the whole house of cards to fall down. Often the requisite basic religious education training that is needed to teach in Catholic schools is not much more than a rubber stamp, a hoop to jump through to get a job. Like everything else in today’s world, many young teachers are looking for an option that allows them to get what is needed with the least amount of effort (again, I re-iterate, this goes way beyond teacher formation).

Teachers cannot teach properly if they are uncomfortable with the course material. This is why over the past 22 years I have never darkened the door of the wood shop or a science lab – both myself and my principal know that the results would be disastrous, with a call to 9-1-1 being the best case scenario. Yet, year after year we have teachers from Kindergarten to Grade 12 who are asked to teach the faith with a very rudimentary knowledge of Church teachings. And, as if to add insult to injury, there are a number of non-practicing “Catholic” teachers charged with passing on the faith to our children. In my mind this is tantamount to asking someone who doesn’t speak French to teach French Immersion.

Having spent the better part of the past 40 years in the Catholic school system as both student and teacher, I know that it is far from perfect, but that there are also many bright lights shining in the darkness. It has been a couple of generations of publically funded Catholic education to get us to where we are today, and it will take a couple more for Catholic education to fully develop its identity.

Much like ourselves, our personal identity is constantly growing and changing, and so is that of Catholic schools. Much like developing our own personal Catholic identity, our Catholic school identity is not so much about where we are coming from, but where we are going to.